Thursday, July 23, 2009

Channeled reading for an Empath

[This is an actual channeled reading for a woman we'll call Elle.]

Elle:

I have been pretty much down, for some time now. Can't seem to shake it.

David:

Well, let's see what we can do about that. I am feeling like 'they' want to talk to you directly - so this is going to be more like a straight channeling from them. Is that okay?

Elle:

Sure. Exciting.

Channel:

It is exciting indeed.
David is filling with an energy of excitement as he allows more of us to come through for you. Of course the benefit is for both of you. It always works this way. One cannot be in service of another and not be in service of themselves.
First - we wish to allow you to 'unburden' some of what you have been experiencing. Vent is a term frequently used in your language. Tell us what has been troubling you. See if you can express the emotion with the words like you are sending it out - casting it out of you - setting these troublesome emotions free.

Elle:

First would be the nervousness of my husband being laid off and not receiving any job prospects. The frustration is overwhelming.

Channel:

His frustration and your nervousness, or are you also frustrated? See if you can separate what he feels from what you feel.

Elle:

Both of us frustrated and nervous. I know I feel what he feels so I get it double.

Channel:

Exactly!
For a few moments - while David types - see if you can continue to separate what he feels and what you feel. You should - sooner than later - find the differences.
You see - you are very empathic. Your relationship with you mother helped that gift grow strong within you. However, it does not feel like a gift - more like a curse - to many like you. Yet it is pretty much the highest gift one can receive - at least during the time when you received it.
We will explain shortly. For now, visualize what your husband feels and what you feel as two separate bodies of energy. Yes, they are close together. Yes, they even exchange electrons of emotion, yet they are separate. And what makes them separate is that you have control over yours but not his. It may not feel that way, but it is that way. When you perceive them as one, then you only feel lack of control.
So the first stage is to find the separation between them.
Now the real truth is that as you separate them, and learn better to guide your own, you will ultimately change it all. That is the power in the gift of empathy. You can more easily change what another feels because of your acute ability to feel it very much they way they do. But your focus must be on what YOU feel, not what THEY feel, even if it feels the same.
So, the empathy tool works like this: You are in the presence of another; you tune into them; you perceive what they perceive - feel what they feel; feel AS they feel.
In a sense, it is like you become them - see their world through their eyes. This, in a sense, makes a copy of their experience and places it in your own. If you think about this in the terms of the Akashic Records (or similarly as video recording), you make a copy of their experience and then have your own copy. Up to this point, you are extremely proficient.
Do you agree so far?

Elle:

Yes, I do.

Channel:

Okay - so here is what to do next: Now you have a copy of what another feels, and most commonly your husband because you are most close to him. So now you get to do whatever you wish with your copy. You have not been told this, so you have only thought that your role is to carry it.
You may have even been told to carry it like a cross (in your childhood). Yet, that is simply one choice and not a fortunate one. Now that you have created this copy - you can play with it, shift it, move it, send it into the earth, transform it, express it.
There are so many possibilities. But the first thing you might want to do with it is remember that it is not yours.
It is yours in as much as you created a copy for yourself, but it is not yours meaning that you did not create it from scratch. You did not manifest it and so there really is no reason for you to carry it. There wouldn't be anyway - even if you did manifest it, but many of you feel more responsibility for your own creations.
Allow an example:
Suppose someone at works makes a mistake, a costly mistake, and one that require much effort to undo, hours’ worth. The person who made the mistake will likely feel the most responsible for it. They will feel that they should be the one to pay for it
So you come along and being the light worker, the loving compassionate person that you are, you wish to help. You say to this friend, this loved one, "It's okay. You do not need to do this all by yourself. I'll help"
Now, ideally, you would always remember who you really are. You would always see your light and know you are helping and had chosen to do so. And you would thus be able to mend the error without ever feeling responsible for it. You would just feel the joy of helping another.
Yet, at this point, many of you Lightworkers haven't yet been able to hold on to sight [memory] of yourselves [who you really are]. When you get down into the nitty-gritty of energy work, you forget who you are and then are "stuck".
Okay - let's go back to the energy bubbles, his and yours. Can you visualize how yours is just a copy of his?

Elle:

Yes.

Channel:

Can you visualize his as three-dimensional and yours as just a two-dimensional video of his?
It is okay if you cannot.

Elle:

It is difficult because they are very similar.

Channel:

Some of these visualizations are being suggested and may not be consciously "doable" now, but the suggestion will plant a seed within you. Another is this: see if you can imagine his outside of you and yours inside of you.

Elle:

I can do that.

David:

It's me again. I have to come back for a minute.

Elle:

OK

David:

I don't have to so much as I did.
I think I am now empathically experiencing it and that has brought me back. I think they want me to play as you do - in it.
Oh, I just remembered something.

[I explained a situation a few years ago where I was dealing with outside energies.]

So I asked them what to do with it and they said, "Don’t worry about . Just clean up the energy. Do your energy work on it. Treat it like it is a person if you will, but just use your Reconnective Healing on it.”
They also said, when it is in the house, you can do literal house cleaning because that transmutes the energy as well

Elle:

What if your body is rebelling and you are physically and mentally exhausted [and] in physical pain[?] [A]ll I wish to do when I get home is to retreat inside myself.

David:

One sec - I am going to bring them back...

Channel:

The desire to retreat inside of oneself is one of self-preservation. It is one learned at an early age when too much has been absorbed. The physical pain is simply an indicator that too much has been absorbed. When the gift of the empath is given, it is never intended for the "copy" to be held on to.
Okay, when you feel that all you want to do is retreat, tell us what you do? Do you retreat?

Elle:

Sit, stare at the TV (not really watching), sometimes reading but not wanting any interruption.

Channel:

Does this bring any relief?

Elle:

Just takes up time until it is time to go to bed. But sleep is also not helpful because I am not getting much.

Channel:

Does your energy change upon entering your home after returning from work?

Elle:

Both places are extremely stressful right now. So I can't seem to escape from either of them.

Channel:

Okay - we have a suggestion for you. We are going to have David send you his book because there are specific parts to it that can be helpful to you. Now, you may want to read it like a story from start to finish, but you may want to use it in other ways. For example, each chapter is a tarot card - do you have a tarot deck?

Elle:

Several

Channel:

You can pick a card and then read that chapter. Or, you can seek out the channeled sections and read those. Most of them are towards the back and the energy within those messages can help.
One exercise that would be helpful is to spend an intentful few minutes between work and home. In your car with the AC running, feel the breeze blowing on your face and for a moment, ask that all that attached [to you] at work be left at work. Ask for as much light to enter to help you transform home [stuff]. This is the on-the-way-home exercise. On the way to work, do the same in reverse. Begin to separate the home stress and the work stress. When you have the book, which you might want to keep in the car, you can read a section that you most enjoy in between work and home, home and work.
So - two things to focus on - two exercises of separation - separating what you feel from what your husband feels and separating work energies from home energies. See, part of what is most troublesome is that you are carrying both at once. Even if you are not yet able to let either go, you don't need to carry both together. So the first step is to put one down while carrying the other. Until it becomes natural, it will take an intentful few minutes in between. You can visualize it as a backpack. When you are done with work, specifically take off your work backpack.

David:

[Don’t visualize putting the other one on though! ]

Channel:

Let's return to how you are feeling right now.

Elle:

Better able to breathe at the moment. Have a little better understanding of a path forward.

Channel:

Okay - we now want to talk about you. We've talked a lot about your gift of empathy, which is a very challenging gift to wield. We now want to talk about you - or more significantly, your feelings about you.
How are you feeling about yourself right now?

Elle:

Scared. Threatened.

Channel:

That sounds more like how you feel about life maybe. Is that true? What is the source of those feelings? Can you find them? What specifically feels threatening?

Elle:

Somewhat. I am scared of what is going to happen after the surgery in August, emotionally and physically. I guess the threatened [feeling] would still be from my job. I carry a lack of confidence there and well as energetically for myself.

Channel:

Let's focus for a moment on this feeling of being threatened. Can you find a specific source of it? See if you can find what specifically feels threatening - a person perhaps?

Elle:

Work is expecting too high a volume from me and not listening to me when I say I will need help. I have a great fear of failure to them and to myself. I do not understand their intention of what they are pushing on me.

Channel:

So, if you had to attribute the threat to a being of some kind, it would the company as a whole?

Elle:

The company is too large to relate directly to me so I would say the layers of management directly related - 2 - 3 people.

Channel:

Okay - one moment.
Consciousness exists at many levels all at once. So a company has consciousness, a country, a government, a department, a group of any sort. Humans recognize this on a subconscious level and refer to these aggregate consciousness beings as simply 'they'.
This is appropriate, we are just explaining.
So right now, it is accurate to say that you feel threatened, to some degree, by 'they' where 'they' could be a collection of individuals.
Now, each of these aggregate consciousness beings have a higher self just like individuals. And you can communicate with that higher self through your own. That higher self, being a higher self, wishes nothing but love to all.
So an exercise for dealing with a feeling of threat from the outside is to ask your higher self to interact with the higher self of the source of that threat. The reality is that no outside anything can bring to you any harm that you do not allow. The exercise is merely to see this 'they' as having a higher guidance system, to see it/they differently.
Do you understand?

Elle:

Yes.

Channel:

Good
When an individual is doing something hurtful to us, even in our pain, we can reach to see them as a good person doing bad things due to either their pain or a lack of understanding.
Groups are the same. This group is acting out of fear. They fear - collectively – the end of their own existence and are thus giving that fear to others by demanding more from them.
You see, with group consciousness, when the group ceases, the lower consciousness ceases in a similar way to a person dying, and this group does not want to "die".
So, in viewing it in this way, you can see its fear, and thus have understanding. You can also ask (in this higher way) for its support. It cannot live without you.
Okay - it is after 8:00, do you still have some time?

Elle:

About 10-15 minutes.

Channel:

Okay - first a summarization of this last point and then back to how you feel about yourself.
When you feel like someone or something outside of you can bring you harm, this exercise of seeing that person or that group or that thing as having a soul and a higher self is to help bring light into the situation.
When you stretch to see these higher aspects of them, you ALLOW the higher aspects of them to be evident to you, and thus you attract higher aspects of them to you, such as support, compassion, understanding, and even love.
So the exercise is just so that you then call forth from them - attract from them - the aspects you wish to experience. It is YOUR power that attracts - it is your vibration - it is your calling. They do not have power over you no matter how much it looks that way. But it is easier to use your compassion to see their light than your power - at least right now. As you move through this, you will then be able to activate your power directly.
Does this make sense?

Elle:

Yes, it does.

Channel:

Excellent. Do you see yourself as compassionate?

Elle:

Very much so.

Channel:

Is that a characteristic that you appreciate in others?

Elle:

Absolutely.

Channel:

When someone is compassionate towards you, does that make you feel better?

Elle:

Yes.

Channel:

So does seeing yourself as compassionate allow you to see yourself as someone to appreciate?

Elle:

Yes.

Channel:

Your compassion towards others is a huge gift and a powerful one. When you can see others (individuals or groups) as beings to have compassion for as they struggle with their own fears, then that place you put yourself into helps everyone. Your compassion for them helps you connect to your own source of light and helps you see yourself in that light.
Tell us what you think and/or feel right now about anything.

Elle:

I am actually feeling more empowered and more confident. For that I must thank you. I have a better way of looking at things and that will help me move through the situation.
I hope this is not disrespectful. But may I ask the name or names of whom I have been talking to?

Channel:

Our names? Names challenge David for sure, but we shall help him.
For one, the members of Abraham are here. There are others here as well. Your personal guides are here. Samuel is one of them. There are others here that are ancestors - specifically maternal.

David:

Is there a Gertrude in your lineage?

Elle:

My stepfather’s mother went by Gertrude sometimes, but her name was Gerarda. She went by Sally too.

Channel:

Okay - before we close we wish one more comment.
You know that David love you, yes?

Elle:

Absolutely, as I do him.

Channel:

Do you know WHY he loves you?

Elle:

I guess not.

Channel:

He sees who you really are! He sees how lovable you are! He sees how much you deserve to be loved!
He loves loving people in this way. He does not see who everyone really is, but you have let him see you and that is why he loves you so.
This experience is not in any way limited between you.
You, in that moment in San Diego, let him see who you really are and that is all it took. As you let others see who you really are, others will see you and shine their love on you also, and will love loving you.
If you ever feel like a burden, cast that thought away because know that David loves being here for you and others like you because it helps him love himself. So go to him when you need, when you desire, and know that you are giving as much back always.
Allow the reflection of love between you to build both of you up simultaneously.
We brought you together for a reason back in San Diego.
We are going to close now. Thank you for letting us shower you with our love and do call on us frequently.

Elle:

Thank you all and David for your guidance, support and love.

Thursday, July 2, 2009

A Chat about Money – In the Records

Tell us what you want.

I want to start making money again.

Why do you want to make money again? Do you not have enough money now?

Well, I do have enough money now, and I am thankful for that. It just has been a long time since I've made money, enough money, significant money, and my savings is dwindling.

You have said a lot there. Let’s start with the idea that you have not made ‘enough’ money in a while. What does that mean to you?

Well, I guess enough money would be equal to the amount of money I am spending. I should say it has been a while since I’ve made as much money in a year as I've spent in a year.

OK, that feels better to us because you are now being clear. You have enough money, and you know that you do, so really zero income is ‘enough’ income – at least right now. It is important for you to keep in the forefront of your mind that you have enough and you want more. You do not need to justify your request for earnings by saying (or thinking) that you need to cover your expenditures. You ARE covering your expenditures and have never experienced the inability to do so. Yes, even during that period in 1991, you still covered your expenditures with your credit. In the universe, there is no credit or debit concept. All is created and merely accepted (received) or not.

We now want to go back to your first statement. You used the phrase “making money”. You “want to start making money”. Explain that desire in more detail.

I want to start making money. I want to start receiving income for my work. Oh, I see what you are getting at. Yes, I am asking to receive money in exchange for something. Yeah, I’m still stuck on the transaction concept.

First, allow us to tell you that you are not ‘stuck’ on the transaction concept. For that matter, neither is your society. You are all simply moving through that experience until you decide on another. We feel this is a significant subject to broach here, partly because you are wanting to move past it and partly because it will be valuable to others reading this.

Most of your western world operates within a transaction-based system. This is primarily a monetary (money-based) system as well, yet even barter is transaction-based. And yes, even your sexual and emotional relationships are more transaction-based than most are aware. A transaction is simply an exchange, but one that is made intentionally. In other words, something is given in exchange for something received. Monetary transactions are straightforward. One gives money and gets services and/or items in exchange.

Now, some might think that we wouldn’t have an opinion about a transaction-based system, but we do. We don’t have a judgment about it, but we have an opinion. Yet our opinion doesn’t matter. Your opinion matters. In fact, take that sentence literally. Your opinion about a transaction-base system matters – creates matter – and thus affects your experience. Allow us to guide your attention to your own opinions about your transaction-based system.

How often do you feel as if something costs too much? How often have you felt cheated for paying a particular amount for something? How often are you trying to get more and pay less for goods and services? How often are you (specifically you, David) not getting paid enough (or even anything) for what you do?

A transaction-based way of life has issues for sure. Every dollar means something different to each of you AND the value of money changes all of the time. For example, how much easier or harder is it for you to spend $1,000 today as compared to when you had an abundance of income?

So, one issue with a transaction-based system is that it is not fair or equitable. The exchange is never exact. Three people can go into a store and buy identical items for the same cost, yet each is getting and given different value in the exchange. Your $10 might cost you more than another’s $10 costs them. And the item purchased might mean more to another than it does to you.

Yet this is not what we most dislike about a transaction-based system. What we dislike about it is that it allows you all to believe that you didn’t create the whole thing to begin with. When you buy a book for $25, you created the book, the $25, the bookstore, the time with the cashier, and even the weather on the way to and from the bookstore. You believe that all you have to do is create the $25 and then that gives you the ability to buy the book you desire, but that is not at all how it works.

A monetary system allows you to believe you have power when you have money, but it also allows you to believe that you have power ONLY when you have money. You are constantly measuring value based on currency rather than experience. “Is that book really worth $25 to me?” you ask before buying it. Look how long, David, you have talked yourself out of buying this and that by feigning, “I don’t NEED it right now.” So, tell us, what do you want?

OK. I am going to write what comes to mind, but I am going to correct myself until it feels accurate.

Good. You do that!

I want to feel valued. I want my services to feel valued. I want my services to feel valuable. I want my services to be valued by others because this helps me feel valued. Ideally, I want to feel valued no matter what others do or think or say.

We’re going to jump in here and prod you for a moment. What is with this ‘ideally’ descriptor? We asked you what you want. Do you want anything that is not ideal for you? Don’t edit your words about what your wants are. You want what you want, simply. Everything you want is your ideal, and it changes all of the time. Speak your truth!

OK, OK. I want to be valued AND I want people to value me. I want my work to be valuable AND I want to be paid for it. I want my work to be meaningful. I want it to be meaningful to me, primarily, AND I want it to be meaningful to others.

Good. Better, a little. We know that we don’t need to remind you that you are still looking for validation. You still want to see value in what you do through others’ eyes. That is perfectly fine because that is where you are and you know it. We also know you can do better so give it one more go.

I want to love everything I do and do only what I love. And I want to feel good about everything I do, all of the time, no exceptions.

Now THAT was powerful. Go ahead, feel it. Let the tears come. You have just uncovered one of your most true desires. You know that you choose to do a whole host of things you do not love. Sometimes you do things you do not love in the hopes of gaining love down the road. And often, you don’t feel good about what you have done (in the recent and distant past) and then feel even worse about it as time goes on. THAT is the source of your pain. It has nothing to do with money and money will not solve that.

If you got paid for everything that you did this year, you would likely feel better about it, but you wouldn’t love it more. You might feel better about the idea of treating yourself with more purchases, but you would not have satisfied this inner most desire. In fact, many people do things they don’t love simply because they are being paid for it.

You, our dear boy, feel obligated to do things even when you’re not paid for it. Some around you don’t understand that in you. Why would you work so hard for seemingly nothing, or at least nothing guaranteed? Yet, we do want to commend you on this. Some part of you knows that money is not your issue. You allow it to be an excuse at times, but not always.

You are mostly doing what you want to do, or at least what you feel you need to do in and of itself. You are doing less of one thing in order to get something else and you are spending more time doing something simply because it feels good (or at least better than the alternative). You are even spending more time NOT doing things simply because the idea of doing them doesn’t feel good to you. So you are moving in the right direction and are thus not ‘stuck’.

However, you are now ‘struggling’ simply because you have stretched to a perceived limit. You say, I don’t want to work for free any longer, but a part of you knows that getting paid will not solve what you are really feeling. It is kind of tough raising the bar for yourself all of the time, isn’t it?

Yes! Why did I sign up for this?

[crickets]

OK, sorry. I just went to a place where you are not. It got really quiet for a second. If I really take money out of the equation, I start to challenge myself even more. Instead of claiming I can’t do this or that because I don’t have the money to do it, or I don’t know how to make money doing it, I am left with just, "What do I want to do?"

Welcome to the other side of a perceived limit. Forget about money and tell us what you want to do.

Where do I start?

How about with your book?

OK. I want to talk about the book. I want to feel excited about the book and share that excitement with others. I want to talk about all of the wonderful things you all have given me as part of the book, the tidbits of wisdom and the parts that I like to read over and over again.

Good start. How about with the software work?

[deep sign] I had to take a deep breath before that one. Let me start by saying this, I love to write code specifically when I am creating something new. I love taking a starting concept that interests me and creating from it, then experiencing all of the small successes as each piece I create works demonstrably. So, one part of what I want from the software work is more of that.

Again, good start. Go on.

I also want to feel connected to the purpose of the software. I want to create software that serves people on multiple levels.

Does Minggl serve people on multiple levels?

Yes.

So, what then is the issue? You are still hesitant in your energy.

I feel fear. I feel torn. I fear being pulled too far back into software. I fear committing myself to this. I fear re-creating what didn’t work for me before, with Advent.

Ah, you have opened the door to a key issue. You have created a job with Minggl that is everything you asked for, at least some of the time. Yet, as you see the potential to create some of what you don’t desire, you feel like you want to do something different. You feel like you want to start over.

YES, that is exactly it. I feel like the only way to create what I want when things feel a little off, is to start over.

Yet where you start is so unimportant.

Yes, I have been playing Abraham’s words over in my mind when they say that it doesn’t matter where we put our boat in, that the stream will take us to where we want to go, and that all we can do is go willingly or get our butts kicked along the way.

You are hovering around another key issue, but you haven’t quite gotten to it yet.

Yeah, I almost felt it.

You DID feel it and it was specifically when you wrote about getting your "butt kicked”.

Yeah. I feel like every time I find something (or someone) I love, I then get my butt kicked.

We know.

And I, of course, have experienced that more times than I care to admit.

Are you ready to stop creating that?

YES.

OK, we just wanted to be sure that you really did want to stop creating that.

I DO. I DO.

This is important. You need to stop beating yourself up over what you have done that you don’t love. We’re not just talking about your past, but every day. Every day you do something you don’t feel good about, let it go. And every day you don’t do something you feel you should have done, let it go. You are kicking your butt every day and then having the experience of getting kicked. And your unfortunate belief has you getting kicked right after having an experience you especially enjoyed, so you search for a feeling of love, feel love, and then get kicked, repeatedly.

Yeah. Problem number one might be obligation, but problem number two is guilt.

More accurate would be to say that problem number one is believing that there is a problem and problem number two is experiencing that belief over and over again.

You guys are amazing.

Thank you. Yes we are and oh the joy of experiencing that through you.

And thank you for this experience. It has helped a lot.

Go now, carry on with your day and be easy with yourself. You have opened the door to a lot of things that you desire and this is just beginning. Do what feels good and feel good as often as you can for no reason at all!

Thanks. And thanks for being here with me.

Always and all ways.