The One and The Two

[This is very unusual - 2 posts in 1 day - but then again given the subject of this post - I guess it is perfection at work!]

After completing the story of A Fool’s Journey, I decided I wanted to write an appendix for the book, which would contain short descriptions of all of the cards of the Tarot. I was also guided to write about numerology as it related to the Tarot and the story. [For those that have read the book, you know what I am speaking of.]

Within the appendix, there is this section on numerology:

ZERO VERSUS ONE AND TWO – THE CREATION OF DUALITY
In many ways, Zero exists outside of numerology. That is because you can never arrive at zero from any other number. Zero represents the absolute where nothing is separate, no beginning and no end. Once you move to the One, you must also create the Two because in having an observer, you have the observed. The One and the Two represent duality, the relative realm as opposed to the absolute.

In actuality, all numbers, words, symbols, signs, religions, and philosophies are dualistic (rather than absolute) because they represent pieces and parts of the whole. The absolute is beyond description, really.

Yet, symbols are valuable in helping us to understand our place since we are finding ourselves immersed in duality quite regularly. So let me attempt to recreate some divine guidance that came out of the Akashic Records this week.

I was doing a reading for a dear friend. Before opening the records, I felt that they were going to use the symbols 1 and 2, partly because these numbers kept popping up on my trip and a part of me was curious about them.

So the Record Keepers spoke of manifestation and indeed used the symbols of 1 and 2. Now, in thinking back on the reading, one could say that any manifestation that occurs is like the moving from the 1 to the 2. For example, 1 represents the individual, each of us. 2 represents something outside of ourselves, a person, experience, or thing that we desire. The manifestation journey is the path from the 1 to the 2.

[By the way, I have to share with you that triple digits are very active in my awareness as I type word 333 at 2:22 pm!]

Okay, so here we are a lonely 1 contemplating a 2 that we so deeply desire. Maybe that 2 is another 1 that we wish to have a relationship with. Maybe that 2 is the idea of relationship and the other 1 is not here yet. Maybe that 2 is our body, a job, a house, a car, a feeling of wellbeing, ease or health. The point is, think of the 2 as anything that you desire that you think/feel/perceive is not yet here in your now experience.

So they then kept reminding me that in order to manifest the 2, you have to embrace the power of the 1. What does that mean? Well, if 2 also represents duality, then 1 represents unity. On some level (beyond our awareness) we exist outside of time and space and are forever united with Source and thus connected to All That Is. That means that in some perspective, we already have what we desire, even in all of the colorful details that we can imagine.

Yet, as an individual 1, we sit here not feeling or seeing that specific aspect of All That Is that we desire. We don’t see our partner sitting before us. We don’t have the money. We can’t see our body the way we want it to be. We don’t feel what we want to feel.

But as long as we keep looking at the 2 with eyes that tell us that it is apart from us, we will not be able to get to it. We can’t say to another that they hold our happiness, and then find our happiness. We can’t believe something is lost and find it. We can’t feel powerless and find our power. So how do we get out of this mess?

One message is to contemplate all of the various aspects of 1 until we find the one that is missing. Let’s say we (the 1) are in a relationship and are still sure that we can only be happy if our partner (the 2) changes in a particular way. Every aspect of our relationship and our partner is the 2 relative to us. Anything we wish to be different in our relationship or partner cannot happen through our will to change it/them because while we are focus solely on the 2, we are missing the 1.

What is it in us that makes us think we need something outside of ourselves to be complete, happy, or ecstatic? Think about the feeling of ecstasy. Is it not a feeling that bubbles up from within? Why then does anything outside of ourselves matter?

Replace ecstasy with any other feeling you can think of and answer that same question. Does it matter whether someone is there or not to feel love, loved, happy, joyous, strong, healthy, wealthy, etc.? When you are in love, are you not still in love when the object of your affection is absent from your sight? Being in love is exactly that, it is a state of being where you surround yourself with the energy of love. Nothing is happening. Nothing physical need be present.

Keep desiring all aspects of 2 that you want; that is why we are here. We ARE here to create and experience every nuance of 2 that we choose, yet we must forever return to the 1 in order to meet it.

And notice that every 2 contains 1. In fact, every number from 1 to infinity contains 1. You cannot escape 1 except through zero. Zero is the only number missing 1. The absolute is the only place where individuation is non-existent.

1 is not in the zero, yet zero is in everything.

Think about this: when you’ve reached your wits end and yell out to the universe, “I cannot live another second without this thing that I desire,” what do you think happens? Well, you live another second without that thing you desire. And that is the universe’s way of telling you that you are beyond all limitation. Every limit you place on yourself is just that, a limitation YOU place on your SELF. It is not real. You can claim to the universe as much as you like that you are powerless to go on one more moment without something, and you will defy your own limitation right then and there.

At the end of the reading, the Record Keepers said to me in complete clarity,

“We are not here to tell you your future. We are not the creators of your future.”

Wow – what a powerful statement. If only I create my own future, why on earth would I ever ask another (physical or non-physical) what it will be. No matter how much they see, I am the creator. They can see absolute doom lying right in the road ahead of me, but I have the power to step left, right or turn around right now.

So I ask you, what is in YOUR future? Are you going to settle for anything less than what you want? Draw up into yourself as much intention as you can muster. Feel your desire burn within you. Know YOU are the creator. Yes YOU are the creator. All of the absolute is expressing itself through your little body. You are a tiny little 1 in the middle of billions of others, yet all of the power of the absolute is streaming through every atom, every cell and for every fraction of time that you experience. Do you think that if you state with absolute certainty what would be that it wouldn’t be?

There is all the time in the world for you to find your power, but there is no reason to wait. Look at whatever challenge stands before you and laugh. Nothing outside of you is more powerful than you are, for you are the creator of it all. Go ahead, I dare you to tell the universe that you cannot live one more moment without a solution, and then watch, the universe will prove you wrong. You don’t need anything. You want it. Go ahead and create it. But just know that as long as you give the 2 more power than the 1, you will not succeed.

Go inside and rage with intention. Tell yourself how much you want what you want and stop letting anyone else’s thoughts about it come into your own mind. Send your power in – not out. If you push on your imagined walls, they grow stronger. Don’t push on them, walk right through them!

Be the 1!

Venus, Mars & Michael Jackson

Some number of years ago, I was reading a book or website on Astrology, specifically natal chart interpretation. The writer used Michael Jackson’s birth chart as an example. I don’t remember much of what I read except for one thing that has stuck with me ever since.

The Astrologer talked about Michael’s struggle with what might be called gender expression. Oh, this is good – I was just given that phrase – gender expression. My definition of gender expression is this – it is the way people express the male and female within themselves regardless of their actual gender or sexual orientation.

Gender expression is something that, for whatever reason, I seem to have a specific awareness of. When I look at a person, I see the male and female within them and I see how each is expressed. My guess is that everyone on the planet has a unique signature, a unique gender expression. And again, this is not at all about homosexuality or even sexuality, just expression. [Although I do think one’s sexual expression is indeed a place where they also exhibit their gender expression.]

Remember that book, Men are from Mars and Women are from Venus? I never read the book, but it was the rage at the time. Dr. Gray likely touched on gender expression, but I would guess he only focused on men expressing their male side and women their female side. I see both expressed in men and woman and this is what interests me.

Now for the record, I am not an astrologer. I dabble for sure, but I am not even what I would call proficient. However, when I look at natal charts, there are times when I feel like I am seeing something significant. Sometimes it’s as if the chart is simply telling me something I have already observed in the person. Allow me an example...

More than a year ago, I met a man who I observed to have a very strong Mars and a very strong Venus. He was very male (looking), lean and muscular. He was outgoing and confident. I could even see (in a reading) his warrior past lives, numerous and very active within him. Yet at the same time, his strong Venus was also clearly evident to me. I could feel the Venus energy expressed through him, in a number of ways, and just as clearly as the Mars.

In looking at his chart some time later, I saw that there were a number of planets in Aries, ruled by Mars, and that his Venus was in Taurus, the sign it rules and where it is strongest. So, from this, I felt validated in my observation. Maybe the placement of Mars and Venus does have something to do with our gender expression.

Now some number of years ago in the early 2000s, there was an astrological aspect (the Harmonic Concordance) that, at the time, was said to indicate the beginning of an era when feminine and masculine energy would become equal here on Earth. For many, many years before, our planet was dominated by masculine energy and this was about to change.

Since then, it does seem to me that we are in fact moving towards more equality in expression. Men seem to be increasingly comfortable with their female side just as women are becoming more accepted for expressing their masculine side. For example, I see a seemingly increasing number of men connecting to their feminine side as they nurture their young children. And look at how many Hollywood movies have come out in the past 8 years that focused on a heroine of epic proportions – very powerful, yet still very feminine.

In fact, it is not a surprise to me that gay marriage is such a hot topic right now. The Sacred Marriage is the bringing together of the Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine. Mundane marriage has always been viewed as the bringing together of one man and one woman. Yet if we have both within each of us, then the bringing together of male energy and female energy is not limited to a marriage between a man and a woman. Each pairing of two people brings both male and female together. In fact, since each partner has both (regardless of gender), then a coming together of two people is really two marriages at the same time!

And now, back to Michael Jackson. As you all surely know, Michael chose to leave this realm yesterday. Despite not feeling a specific emotion about it myself, I did find it interesting that he chose to leave Earth right as Mars and Venus begin to separate after a their most recent conjunction. Now, this shouldn't be that significant because surely Mars and Venus have come together and separated a number of times in his 50 years, but for some reason, it still strikes me as significant. I started to write about this to friends in an email, and since the information flowed so well, I decided to start over and put it here in my blog.

So Michael Jackson is a man who surely had some challenges dealing with his unique gender expression. Being so publicly observed probably didn’t help him, yet being publicly observed seemed very much a part of his purpose.

So, could the timing of his departure in and of itself be significant? Could this be a sign, an indication that the battle between Mars and Venus is shifting? It is funny because as I wrote that last sentence, it occurred to me that battle is of itself a Mars concept. A conjunction between Mars and Venus is a battle only when Mars is dominant. If Mars and Venus are joined as equals, what is it? A marriage perhaps?

I see Michael Jackson as one who very publicly exhibited the struggle of male/female expression within the individual as possibly experienced by many others. Maybe as his struggle comes to an end, it is a sign that THE struggle is soon (relatively speaking) to follow and on a large scale. Maybe it is time for the male and the female within us to stop fighting. Is one preventing the other from realizing its desires? Do we think that only one can be happy and in spite of the other?

For whatever it’s worth, and if so inclined, it might be a good time to look within ourselves to see the man and the woman, the boy and the girl, to see what each desires and how much freedom each feels right now.

I’m not sure the man and woman within me are very happy. I think they both want things they aren’t getting and are possibly blaming the other for. Maybe I need to go have a talk with them and see what we can work out... LOL
Let me know how it’s going inside of you, with your man and woman, and have a great weekend in the mean time!

Confusion

In anticipation of The Body Mind Spirit Expo, I have been doing a bunch of Tarot readings lately. One of the great things about doing a lot of readings in a short period of time is that I begin to see patterns.

The Law of Attraction says that we create our own reality. Taken to the nth degree, as in Ho’oponopono, we create every aspect of the reality that we see around us. Stated another way, the universe is holographic.

Okay – a lot of big words already (and even bigger concepts), but hold on, it’s all down hill from here.

If you follow my work, you will hear me talk about the Perfection of the Universe. Here is an example of the Perfection of the Universe at play: In every case, when I do a reading for someone, the message is for both of us at the same time. What could be more perfect than that? I get to do a reading, which I love, and convey a little bit of guidance and wisdom to another, and in the process I get to receive some guidance and wisdom for myself!

Cards have so many different meanings that sometimes the message for the querent and the message for me are different, but conveyed in the same card. Cool!

So, in looking back at the many readings I have done in the past week, what are the patterns? And if you are reading this, then the Perfection of the Universe is at play and there will be something here for you too! Okay, here goes.

The first card that I noticed as coming up frequently was the Knight of Wands. As an esoteric card, the Knight of Wands means contemplating action or even more esoteric, the study of metaphysics. In one of my decks, this knight is shown carrying a torch. He looks like he is leading the way and lighting the way for others. So after a number of readings, I asked, “Is this me?”

But think about the phrase, “he’s carrying a torch for others”. That phrase has evolved to mean other things. Some would call it “holding space”, but sometimes it means carrying the burdens of others.

And that brings me to the next card that kept coming up, the 10 of Wands. In this card, a man is literally carrying a bundle of sticks. It is an obvious burden, and the implication is that he has far to travel. So, show of hands, how many of you reading this right now feel like you are carrying weight around with you? Do you feel responsible for others? Do you feel like, if you don’t do it, it won’t get done? Is there just a ton to do and it is taking forever? Are you worried about someone or something?

And how many of you are carrying the torch around for others? Are you biting your tongue so as not to upset people? Are you watching others seemingly about to make a mistake and you feel obligated to try and save them from it? Do you fear for the safety of those who you feel are less capable of protecting themselves? By this point, I wouldn’t be surprised if all of you have your hands up. Stated another way, we’re all carrying a load around.

So what now? What’s the guidance? The first is simply this, no matter how many sticks (or torches) you are carrying, you only need to carry one at a time. No matter how far you are traveling, you only take one step at a time. Even if you are sprinting, you are still taking one step at a time. Have something to do tomorrow? Well, do it tomorrow. Let it go today.

Not as easy as it sounds, though, eh?

Next message... 10 of Swords. For those of you who may have seen this card, it is not pretty. Picture a person lying on the ground with ten swords stabbed into their lifeless body, blood oozing out. Gruesome. The tens are endings and some of them are difficult. We, as a species, resist change; we thrive for it, but resist it at the same time. Swords, however, are about thought, so the Ten of Swords is really about a belief that needs to die. If you think changing the earth is tough, try changing a deep seeded belief!

Before I finish the Ten of Swords, I want to tell you about the last card that kept coming up, the 7 of Swords. As a basic, mundane message, the Seven of Swords is about slander and theft. When this cards shows up, you’ve been violated or betrayed. It’s not as painful as the ten, but not fun either. But in most cases, this card showed up in the future position or as the guide card! What? Is this what we have to look forward to? And why would spirit be guiding us toward or about this?

Let’s consider a more esoteric meaning of the Seven of Swords, confusion. Ok, we all know what that feels like. In fact, each of us could be confused about something in our lives right now. But again, I ask, why are we being guided towards this? Does spirit want us to be confused?

Actually, yes!

What!?!? My guides want me to be confused? Why on earth (or not on earth) would they want me to be confused?

Well, how about this, if you are not confused, if you “know it all”, what’s to learn?

Okay. Point taken. I’m listening now...

So let’s say that you are absolutely sure that you know what’s best for you and although you keep trying your damnedest, you keep getting nowhere. “I need to protect myself.” “Survival of the fittest.” “The early bird gets the worm.” All the answers are out there, so what’s left to learn? “There’s nothing new under the sun.”

Now do you see why spirit wants us to be confused? How can we open up to new ideas until we let go of the untruths we keep telling ourselves? As Abraham says to many who keep stating a belief that is not serving them:

“How’s that working out for you?”

7 is a powerful number; it is the destroyer. We build prisons and lock ourselves inside, but then some powerful storm blows the roof off and then tears down a wall. We need to first see how we have bound ourselves in darkness, (the roof being blown off by the Seven) and then have the wall torn down (by the Ten). If it happens the other way, we’ll possibly be too afraid to walk through the hole anyway.

So embrace the confusion. Be thankful that you don’t know everything. If you did, you would already be at the end. If you knew everything, you would have as much as you were ever going to get. What a travesty that would be! There is SO much more to have, to experience, to do. There is so much more love to give and receive, so much more beauty to create. There is so much more to learn and know. We have not even begun!

Embrace the confusion (Seven of Swords) and allow the old beliefs to fail (Ten of Swords). Any blood lost is tainted. Put down some of the burden (Ten of Wands). Bleed out some of the pain. Let it all go bit by bit.

And if I am, in any way, a Knight of Wands, even for just a moment, then let me begin. Let me tell you that I’m still holding on to pain that is coming out a tear at a time. I have doubt. I have confusion. I don’t get a lot of things. I don’t understand why some things keep not showing up in my life, and why I can’t seem to figure out why I am not giving myself the one thing I most want in this life. I am right here with y’all and I’m prepared to curl up and weep if that what it takes to let this old stuff go. I’ve done it before. I can’t image being more scared and in more pain than some of those times in my youth when I thought the love I felt seemingly for the first time, the love that was being taken away would never return.

It returns! It always returns. It may take years, but it returns. I have lived long enough to know it returns. I still haven’t gotten to keep it just yet, or even hold on to it for that much time, but it returns, and I’m growing. We’re all growing.

Let the pain go, let the worry go, you are not alone. Even if I’m not at your side, I’m with you. Let’s cry together and hold each other. It feels good to cry, doesn’t it? Believe me, I’m crying right now, right as word 1444 passes by and I notice it. 444 – you are surrounded by love and support, your guides and loved ones are here to comfort you. YOU ARE NOT ALONE!

God Bless us, everyone!

Growing Beyond Limiting Beliefs

It is 7:30 am. Two hours before the next scheduled Akashic Reading, this time a new client, someone I have never met. The reading is a phone reading, and it has been a while since I've done one for someone I have never met.

8:30, still an hour to go and I'm nervous. "When will I get over being nervous before a reading?" I ask myself. "Take a shower and let the water relax you," I then think.

I start my conversation with spirit in the shower. They say, "Repeat after us, 'I am not responsible for anyone. I am not here to fix anyone because no one is broken. Each person will create their own reading experience, my job is just to be present and allow.'"

Okay, okay, I get that. On the verge of releasing my book to the public, my first novel, I am frequently anxious. I am stretching beyond a believed limit, one that I am not even fully aware of. "You are not growing beyond your capabilities, just beyond what you think you are capable of." That is what they said to me about the anxiety.

9:27, I am guided to place some crystals in a specific pattern in my healing room. This is not common, but not unusual either. "Hold on," I say to my new client in my head, "I need a couple of minutes longer to finish this."

9:33, I am done, but the phone has not rung. I look at my phone and it says, "No Line." What? What happened to my connection. I pick up the phone and I get a dial tone for a moment, then silence. I hang up and try again; this time all is well. "Ah, thank you spirit. You cut my line to buy me an extra couple of minutes." Sure enough, my client had tried to call, twice!

We open her records and the energy starts flying in. "This is a ceremony. This is a celebration." As it turns out, the crystals are significant to her.

Information starts flowing immediately. This is good and I become relaxed very quickly. Ah, this is nice.

At one point, in the middle of the reading, she asks a questions sort of off topic.

Suddenly I am as if in the middle of Times Square. There is energy all around me. I feel like I am getting 15 pieces of information back, all at once, yet I can't catch a hold of any one piece. I reach over here, then there, the words do not come.

"Wel... - Mayb... - I, ah, -" I can't even get a full word out of my mouth. The information is there, so there is no block. Hmm, what to do?...

I take a step back, out of the confusion. "Ok, let's try something else. Let's try and ask a different question. Actually, let me ask you a question. What do you like about {that}?"

As she begins to relate to me what she likes, (loves) about this particular subject, I get placed back into the energy of it, but now the fog has lifted and I experience absolute clarity. I am not only shown the relevance of the subject pertaining to her path, I am also shown what had just happened and why.

The Perfection of the Universe is a phrase I had been given years ago. It exists, always, in every moment. It is when two pieces of All That Is share an experience and each receives exactly what it created. Seeing the Perfection of the Universe is the challenge, the adventure.

In my nervousness, I was asking and wanting. In her questions, she was also. We each sought different information and we each created enough allowing to reach the answer. The Record Keepers were showing me how she controlled the reading. When she was confused, she place me inside of that confusion. She had a question and didn't know the answer, and it was a subject she felt very scattered about. That was exactly the experience I had when faced with the question.

However, in my allowing, I found the path from her confusion to her clarity. By talking about what she loved in that subject, we arrived. I guided her, but she took me there. I felt that. In a flash of understanding, I was shown how it all works, and I was being asked to share this with her.

Spirit wanted her to experience and to know that it was her power that brought the answers to her. I'm only the messenger, the translator. In fact, I would often just tell her something about my experiences, my life, my challenges only to find her saying, "You have just described my life. I now understand why I feel the way I do about this."

I asked spirit for their help for those things I feel anxious about, scared about, challenged by. I am willing, I am walking through the fear, yet I feel it. "You are not growing beyond your capabilities, just beyond what you think you are capable of."

Thank you, thank you, thank you.

How wonderful to know that we create our reality. The power is in our hands. The task is not beyond what we are capable of doing. When we seek clarity, the path out of the fog is revealed, yet we have to walk that path to reach the sunny pastures. There is no time pressure, there is no needing to do anything. You have all the time you need to walk from where you are to where you want to be. Spirit is here, like a loyal pet, at our side and forever in our service. To see this and feel this is such a gift.

The next day, playing on Twitter, I find someone who wrote something to the effect of, "'A silent, mild anxiety' makes me think something is wrong..." 'A silent, mild anxiety', what beautiful words to describe what I had been feeling. My anxiety was not so silent, but I got what he was conveying. Yet, amazingly, right beyond the anxiety is joy, incredible bliss. I feel it.

I am on the verge of realizing a dream I have had for much of my life. I am on the verge of being a published author and am sharing my art with the world. I am giving the world a piece of me that I have nurtured for a long time. The anxiety is just the doorway between this place and that one. I am firmly standing in the doorway, but I am sticking my head into the next room, and seeing beyond my limiting beliefs.

"Take a deep breath and walk through the door. The journey may not be easy, but it will take you to where you want to be."

"To consider the journey’s entirety before taking the first step is to see only the burden of the task. The joy and bliss can only be found when taking each step in the moment.” - from A Fool's Journey

Negotiation

I was doing Tarot card readings for friends last night and in the center of one of the readings was the 7 of Swords, the present situation. When I tuned into that card, I heard the word negotiation. I've never thought of that word for that card before, but I went with it.

"What are you negotiating for right now?"
"Are you feeling like you have to negotiate with others to get what you want or need?"

Both of these questions flew out of my mouth. The querent (the friend I was doing the reading for) seemed to resonate with what I was saying. She mostly just nodded in response, but was deep in thought at the same time.

The questions above must have sat with me because I started noticing a pattern around me. I realized that a number of people, including myself, have been hovering around a particular architypical situation:

Compromise.

Compromise is one way to negotiate.

"If I give up a little over here, then maybe I can get that over there."

Have you been having thoughts like this recently? Do any of these sound familiar?

"If I stop eating dessert, then I might lose some weight."
"If I lose ten pounds, I'll look and feel so much better."
"If I stop buying _____, then I think I'll be able to make it in this economy."
"If I give up ______, then I can have _____."

So spirit was asking my friend, and really all of us, to notice and be aware of our negotiating. Intuitively, I knew to pull another card and place it below the 7 of Swords. I asked the question, "What is the underlying aspect of this situation?" as I turned over the Wheel of Fortune. Fortunes rise and fortunes fall.

It is a belief in the ups and downs of life that causes us to negotiate for what we want. We think we can't have it all. We look around and see that no one we know has it all, so we compromise.

"You have to give up eating _____ to lose weight."
"You and I can't both have what we want, so one of us has to give something up if we are going to stay together."
"You can't have it both ways, so if you want to keep this job, you have to give up that one."

What about trying some of these thoughts?

"I love my life the way it is AND I now want ____ as well."
"If I really can have it all, then I'll take some of ____ and a little of ____."

Spirit reminded me (again) that thought creates. If thought creates, then present experience is the result of past thought. When you find yourself having a specific experience, it is showing you a specific thought that you have had in the past with enough conviction to have brought into physical reality.

Thus, if you find yourself negotiating with yourself or others in the attempt to bring something into your life (or keep something in your life), then that experience is showing you, educating you on a limiting belief that you have about that area of your life. Experience always contains information. Light and information are the same thing. Experience is therefore enlightening, if we so choose to notice.

In your current situation, you may surely have to negotiate because you are still working with the physical manifestation of your old thoughts. Don't fight it. Find the center of your Wheel of Fortune and let the chaos around you work itself out. Do as you are guided. However, in your moments of focus, remind yourself that you can have it all.

Win-win is another way to negotiate. It always exists, you just may not be see it right away. It is not your job to force a win-win, you need only allow it, to see it when it is in front of you and believe in it (focus your thoughts on it).

Ask to see it.

Blessing to you all,
Namaste

What you really desire.

If you are anything like me, you think about what you desire often. You picture it, add details to it every day. You think about how much better your life will be when...

Knowing what you desire is good. Whether you believe in Manifestation or have a traditional work ethic, the starting point is the same. It is easier to hit the target if you know what you are aiming for. [Actually, I am not sure I believe that that last sentence is actually true.]

In the Abraham teachings, we are often taught, "think only of what you want and why". This has stuck with me for a long time, yet I am not sure I ever really got the why part.

In a recent reading, a man was guided to explore deeper into one of his desires. They walked him through the why. I trusted that this would be a beneficial exercise, but did I really get it yet?

Then, yesterday, a friend says to me, "I really just want to create what's next, yet I feel like I am having to sit and wait and allow it to come."

Immediately, I was reminded that allowing is creating, at least Metaphysically speaking, so I shared that with him. Yet, the more significant guidance was what came next. This is more or less how I heard it.

"Allowing is creating, thus in your allowing, you are creating, yet you still desire the act of creating. What you really desire is the act of expressing more of who you really are. The action that is interpreted as creation is really just expression. Right now, you do not feel as if you are expressing all of yourself, at least not all at once. You express this part of you here and that part of you there. Your desire for a future situation is a desire to express more of yourself."

When I heard this message as it came out of my mouth, I was blown away by how profound it is. As I examined my own desires, in every case I can think of, the desire is the same. I desire expressing more of myself, freely, without fear and without shame.

Somehow, knowing the why behind my desires has eased my judgment of it. In understanding why I desire what I desire, I am beginning to give myself permission to have what I desire.

To quote another divine message received recently, "Our greatest intention and desire for you in this moment is to gain awareness of your self through this reading. With an increase in self awareness, everything in your life will become easier. You will understand why you desire what you desire and then understand this within others. You will also begin to see how you attracted what you see around you and then come to see how it all serves you."

Many blessings to you!

On the road to Abundance?

If you read the papers or watch the news, you’re probably witnessing a lot of concern over the economy. “How bad is it going to get before it turns around?” “How long will it take to get back to that comfortable place?”

Many of you have likely heard of The Law of Attraction and may have even seen/read The Secret. Within certain circles, focus on attracting wealth has been growing. You might even say it is a movement within our society.

So, if the Law of Attraction is true, and so many more have been focusing on abundance and wealth, why is the economy so grim? Ah, now you’re asking a good question.

Yesterday, I had the pleasure of doing an Akashic Records Consultation for a man who is well versed in The Law of Attraction. He teaches and coaches others, is intelligent, eloquent, and metaphysically gifted. I knew that a jaunt through his records would be enlightening and it was. In fact, some really good (general) information came up that I feel is important to share.

For those who have never had an Akashic Records Consultation, wisdom is often conveyed through analogy. That is because as our human mind approaches new information, it is most easily understood when given via a familiar paradigm. [If we were simply shown “truth” in its native form, we would probably not be able to understand it very well.]

The first analogy I was given is related to Quantum Physics. :-) Concerning the atom, we now know that an electron cannot just linearly (bit by bit) move from one level (shell) to another. When its energy increases just enough, it instantaneously jumps to the next level, skipping all of the space that lies in between. This is called a Quantum Leap, a term I am sure you are all familiar with.

What I was shown yesterday is that the electron, before it makes this leap, starts to vibrate rapidly as its energy nears the threshold. It has more energy than it needs at its current level, but not quite enough for the next level, so the excess energy causes it to vibrate. If you could look at this tiny electron at that moment in time, you would think it was having a fit. It would look chaotic, distressed, and anxious.

Hey, does that sound familiar? Does our economic situation look chaotic, distressed and anxious?

The Record Keepers then told me that our economic situation is a direct result of all of the additional focus on abundance. But, this seems counter intuitive. Shouldn’t things be getting better instead of worse? Well, not necessarily. Here is why.

Let’s say you have been asking for increased income (specifically). Well, in ultimate reality, your income increases instantly the moment you ask. However, you likely don’t see it from your perspective. But that is exactly what needs to change. Once your perspective shifts, than your experience will also shift.

How can we change our perspective? Well, the Perfection of the Universe helps us with that by showing us (in a highlighted fashion) what we are looking at – namely the opposite of abundance, which is preventing us from seeing what we asked for. [In fact, we probably asked for abundance years ago, but have been so focused on the lack of it, that we haven’t seen all that we have created in the mean time.]

Let me expand this example for clarity. Say you believe that you only have one source of income, your (measly) paycheck. Having asked for more income, you might only be looking for results in your existing paycheck – namely as a raise. [You probably also believe that there is no reason for your pay to magically go up, and so it hasn’t.]

But that is the error – thinking you only have one source of income. You never have only one source of anything, income included. So, how can the universe help you see the other sources that are already available to you? They are there, but you continue to miss them.

Well, the universe can reduce (or remove) the one you currently see. If you think you have only one source, and that one is compromised, then you are forced to look for others. It is actually an ingenious design. “Need is the mother of all invention” as they say.

So right now, many people are experiencing an apparent reduction of wealth because they are mistaking figures on a balance sheet as abundance.

Don’t believe me? Well let me ask you this. What would rather have – a large lump sum of money that would never be replenished once it ran out, or a personal ATM machine that, on a daily basis, gave you whatever you needed to spend on that day, but not a penny more? The lump sum would feel more exciting the day you got it, sure, but a few years down the road when it started to run out, you would get pretty scared. [Sort of like what is happening right now?!?!]

True abundance is having what you need/want when you need/want it. The lump sum just looks like more in the moment. Needing and wanting the lump sum is actually a wish based on fear, fear that the ATM will break down.

Now, remember Mani and Lofa (previous post)? Remember how Mani needed to redo his foundation before he could build the better house? Well, that is what is happening to our economy and financial system. The old system cannot support the abundance of everyone, because there has to be losers to be winners. [Look at it this way. Everyone wants stuff, but wants stuff to be cheap. How can everyone be abundant if the buyers don’t want to give much money to the sellers?]

The road to abundance (be it wealth, health, romance or otherwise) is not a smooth, comfortable, flat road. What is (relatively) smooth, comfortable and flat is the road that loops back on itself, you know, the one you may have been on for the past how many years? [Believe me, zooming around my own loop has me dizzy!]

When you seek new, you seek change. When you seek change that is fast, there is an abrupt shift and sometimes these shifts feel “bad”.

Let me speak on that for a moment. So when you ask for something, anything, you get it right away, even if you don’t see it. And you can keep not seeing it for years. This works both ways. When you worry, you are focusing on fear and thus asking for it. [Sorry, I didn’t make the rules; it’s just the way it is.]

So let’s go back to the example. You have asked for an increase in income – possibly have been asking for years. You still don’t see it and you are worried. In fact, you have been worried as long as you have been asking.

Karmically, you have created two pools of energy, one that is abundant and one that is not. You keep seeing the one that is not, at least part of it, the part that stops you from seeing the abundant part. But your worry might also have created some difficult events, some that haven’t happened yet. Now the more massive the energy, the stronger it pulls you. This is manifestational gravity. So you are pulled towards abundance and pulled towards fear at the same time, and it doesn’t feel very good. It feels like that poor little electron, vibrating seemingly out of control.

Sometimes, all it takes is a slight change in perspective (attitude) to induce the quantum shift. But the shift itself is important. The perfection of the universe can take care of two birds with one stone – so to speak. Through the shift itself, you might also manifest an uncomfortable event, like an accident or the loss of a job or relationship, which then propels you into the new shell where you will eventually experience a new job, relationship or level of abundance like you never could before. So the shift itself burns off some negative karma while at the same time pushing you into a new level where you can then experience what you have asked for all along.

If you knew where you were going, the shift would probably not be so bad.

So, you asked for growth and to get to the next level, you have to leap. It is a leap of faith and the shift can be abrupt. Literally, the earth can shift beneath your feet and move to a new location. What needs to be cleared just might collapse making space for the new (paradigm) to be built. The old house might need to be removed so we can fix the foundation and build a new.

Fear not! It is all for your greater good. If it feels like it is happening to fast, just ask for it to slow down. However, most of you, I suspect, think it is taking too long and just want to be there already. Well, when you ask for it to be fast, it is going to be abrupt and just might be uncomfortable.

And that’s where people like me come in. If you are uncomfortable, you have a place to go. More and more of us are moving into a field of service to help everyone as we each shift. This shift paradigm is not just what individuals are going through, but groups, societies, countries, businesses, political parties and religions. We got called here first so that we would be ready when you need us.

Many blessing to you on your road to abundance!