Men and Women

Each time I update my blog, I send out a message to everyone on my email list.  (Shoot me an email if you would like to be added to that list.) Well, a couple of weeks ago, I invited those on the email list to submit questions or topics for future blog entries. One active reader thus responded with this:

Ok.

This question has been on my mind for a long time.  I'm reading Conversations with God, so perhaps this is answered in there and I just haven't read it yet, but...

I'm really interested in finding out why men and women are said to have completely different biological designs that often times cause the opposite sex pain, confusion, and misunderstanding.

That's as simple as I can ask it.

Thanks!

In reading the question I thought, “Nothing like starting out with a doozy!” yet, spirit immediately began providing imagery in way of a response.  “This is going to be pretty good,” I thought next.

To begin discussing this topic, I would like to take you back to my first metaphysical short story, A New Genesis.  Here’s the first few paragraphs of that story:

On the First day, God created Vibration.  In less than an instant, All That Is vibrated with Joy, and it was good.

This new concept pleased God, and it also piqued His interest. He decided to continue creating, to play with what He had done, and thus, on the Second day, God created Variation.  God decided that if all parts of All That Is vibrated uniquely, then some would be fast and some would be slow.  He gave this new concept another name, Frequency. 

Now, if the creation of vibration was good, the creation of variation was great!  See, as God created variation, there was variation to everything. 
Not only were there fast and slow, but there were infinite degrees of each. The more He varied the pieces, the more characteristics He created.

God was curious about all of the variations and thus, on the third day, He created Separation.  He reasoned that with separation, the myriad variations could be enjoyed individually. So, through separation, All That Is became an infinite number of individual pieces vibrating uniquely. God called these His Children, and loved each and every one of them.

So through vibration, variation, and separation, individual pieces of consciousness were created.  The obvious advantage to this is the nearly infinite and unique personalities created.  No two pieces were exactly alike and as each moved through time and space, each would evolve along a unique journey.

However, there was a second advantage to all of this.  Not only does each piece have a unique personality, it also has a unique perspective!  Through separation, it was now possible to observe The One via All That Is from the outside!  This could not be done before that.  So now, The One not only had access to an outside view, but had a nearly infinite number of them all at the same time!

So, as I read of the question above, spirit gave me the following vision.

All That Is surrounds a man and a woman standing back to back.  The Man sees everything to the East, the Woman sees everything to the West: two unique but limited perspectives of All That Is.  Neither can see what the other sees, yet they can interact with each other and describe what they see to each other.

This vision certainly intrigued me.

Yet, before I go any further, allow me to branch off into a concept I have been fostering for years now.

The question (and vision) above separates humankind into Men and Women.  Naturally, this is a generalized separation of the population via a single dimension, which helps to understand at least that aspect of individualization.  We could consider other dimensions such as race, culture, nationality, size, etc.  However, gender is a big enough topic to discuss for years!  In fact, many books have been written on the subject, as you well know.

To me, however, it is not just about gender.  In fact, I think the following list of sub topics are all pertinent.  There is:
•    biological gender (male/female),
•    gender identification (i.e., transgendered peoples),
•    gender expression (masculine/feminine),
•    sexual orientation (gay/straight),
•    sexual expression (active/passive),
•    and finally, what I call gender orientation.

What is gender orientation?  Well, even if a person is 100% male, feels 100% content with being physically a man, is 100% heterosexual, he could still have the sensibilities (ideals) that we would generally consider female.

Gender orientation, for me, is most observable in relationships.  Over the years, I have seen many a couple, heterosexual and homosexual alike, where one partner was more male identified and the other female identified with regard to the relationship.  Now this did not include their expression because that is different.  The man above may exhibit quite a masculine expression in the way he carries himself and the activities he participates in, but his relationship ideals may be oriented or aligned with what most of us would consider female.  I have noticed that a man like the one above will often be in a relationship with a woman who is more male within her relationship expression, even if she is quite feminine in her personality expression.

I only mention this because, when I read the question above, which is primarily about relationship, I see this as a person of female orientation questioning the male orientation and asking why s/he feels pain in observing aspects of her/his partner(s) that s/he does not understand.

Interestingly, I would also say that the opposite is not generally true.  Male oriented individuals probably experience much less “pain” when observing the female oriented partner(s).  There may certainly be a lot of confusion about them, but not so much pain.  And why is that?  Actually, answering that question is half the answer to the first question.

Last week, I wrote a section about pain and answered the question, “What is pain?”  In review, pain is a reaction.  That means the nature of the person feeling the pain is the primary factor in understanding that pain.  Therefore, the gender orientation of the individual makes all of the difference.

Female oriented individuals observe All That Is more through their heart chakra, their feeling center, and thus experience the world through their feelings.  Male oriented individuals observe All That Is more through their throat chakra and thus more with their mind.  [Logically, I wanted to say third eye chakra but spirit is saying no – it is the throat that is more linked to the mind.  The Third Eye is more linked to the pineal glad and is thus not about thought as much as it is about perceiving the non-physical, the psychic gifts as it were.]

So, while female oriented individuals tend to experience pain when seeing something they do not understand, male orientated individuals experience something more like frustration. It is more about the reaction or expression than it is the not understanding.

So, hopefully, that explains to our reader why there is pain.  Now let’s ask, “Why is this necessary?”

The answer I am getting right now is that pain, for female oriented individuals, is what best captures their attention.  When a female oriented person (of either gender) is experiencing pain, all of their attention is on that pain.  They want so much to not feel pain and thus seek very deeply to release it.

This propels her/him toward the deepest level of understanding, not just understanding in the mind, but understanding in the heart.  They thus seek "the heart of the matter"!

If you think about it, this gives them (those with the female perspective) an advantage.  There is greater opportunity for evolutionary growth!  It is, by definition more painful, but is also more productive.

Now, another reason I wrote all of this in terms of gender orientation rather than gender itself is because gender orientation is more fluid and changeable than gender, especially now.  Many lifetimes ago, we were one gender and most likely the same orientation that went with it - and that was it.  These days, things are getting more and more mixed up.  Why?  Because that is the way the two perspectives are brought back together. 

First we have male and female as two different identities.  We were born solidly one and spent a lifetime observing the other.  Then we took a turn being the other observing the first.  We have done this for many lifetimes building up our unique understanding.

But now it is time for integration.  We are moving more and more towards the middle.  We are more consciously creating who we are in more detail and with more efficiency.  Each individual (of either gender) is gaining more freedom within all forms of expression.  A man, for example, might really like being male, yet really like being gay, and really like being masculine and yet really like being female oriented within his relationship.  It is his decision, and all others have those same choices.  We can even change gender now, which is something that could not be done years ago.

This is a huge gift!  And how amazing it will be when we have complete efficiency in our creation of self.  At a higher stage of evolution, we’ll likely be able to express ourselves in a completely different form from one moment to the next, changing our “physical appearance” as easily as changing clothes!

In closing, there is one last piece of information that just came through.  Some of the pain that we feel is as a result of self-judgment.  When observing the opposite expression, which we are confused by but drawn toward, we might be unconsciously judging ourselves as being less than. Our culture is still slightly more dominated by the male perspective, which sees sensitivity as weakness.  We as individuals must first correct this misconception within ourselves before it will completely shift globally.

It is exactly the same as with gay marriage.  Individual gay men and women must fully embrace the validity of their own uniquely defined relationships in order to shift the global perspective of their partnerships.  The process of fighting for acceptance outwardly is really just about fighting for acceptance internally.  A la Law of Attraction, once the majority of gay men and women accept their own relationships as they are with no apologies, only then will the world societies no longer have any power to deny recognition of them.  It will just be.

In accepting (and loving) ourselves, we gain access to a flooding of acceptance (and love) from all sources, from All That Is, from Source!

And also note:  this all is a gross over simplification.  Expression is infinitely variable and fluid; categorization always approximate.  Even truth changes with perspective.  Gender orientation itself can be broken down into smaller pieces.  An individual might “think like a man” about monogamy, but “think like a woman” about family.  For each subject, the perspective can lean one way or the other.

What makes us universally unique is not that there are infinite expressions, but that there are infinite combinations of those finite expressions!  We have always been unique, we are simply giving ourselves more permission to express who we really are.

In setting ourselves free, freedom will be had by all!

Cutting Away the Old

The transition from one year to the next (and even more so one decade to the next) is a great time to get a reading.  It is like taking notice of a rite of passage.  January 1st may only be a date that we have created (not based on a specific celestial event); however in giving it value, it has value.  As a result, on New Year’s Eve, I was privy to a number of readings.

When doing several readings in a short period of time, I am better able to get a hit on the psychic weather that affects many of us.  This year, there was one card that stood out, appearing in many of the readings that I did. 

Sometimes when I do readings, I almost forget the meaning of a card.  I find myself looking at it trying to draw more information than is in the forefront of my mind.  This happened with the one that came up again and again.  Each time, I found myself thinking about it more deeply.  It was as if I was psychically researching the meaning of the card, searching for more information.

It took me about 24 hours, but I eventually found what I was looking for. Yet it was then that spirit told me that the message was not just for the few.  This card was describing an archetypal flow of energy that all could possibly experience and benefit from in the first part of 2010.

I have already mentioned that 2010 is a 3 year (2+0+1+0=3).  Similarly to the last blog entry, if I use the Tarot I can again find specific examples of 3. When spirit communicated that this message was for many, they were very clear that the particular card, a 3 as you might have guessed, was an indication of the entire first quarter of 2010.  In fact, they said, each quarter will resemble one of the 3’s of the Tarot.

So, what is the psychic weather for Q1 2010?

The good news is that the most difficult 3 is up first.  The better news is that the rest of the 3’s are all much, much better!

So, for January through March of 2010, we will be dealing with the energy of the 3 of Swords!

Looking at this card, we see a heart pierced by three swords and oozing blood.  It is not a pretty card and is sometimes felt with deep, piercing heartache.  Yet 3 is the number of creation, so while the 3 of Swords hints at pain, it has purpose.

With this card, and for the next three months, we are asked to cut away that which is preventing us from moving forward.  One reader on New Year’s Eve heard it this way: it is the separating of the wheat from the chaff.

Swords represent air, and thus thought and in this case we find three different ways to think about this.  A cutting away of something old is the theme, but depending on your attitude (mental state) and your willingness, you have three analogies to choose from.

In the first case, the blade is a chisel and is firmly in our own hand.  This is the perspective of choice, willingness and empowerment where we see what is necessary for our growth and willingly participate in it.

Imagine that we have a very rough stone in our hands, so rough in fact that merely holding it hurts.  Its edges are sharp and can cut our skin.  Yet spirit is telling us that inside of this stone is everything we want.  Maybe it is a diamond, maybe a piece of gold.  As is, the value is unknown. We are asked to chip away all that is not what we desire.  But this stone is rigid.  We must hold it firmly in one hand while chipping at it with the other.

The second vision is quite a bit more difficult.  The 3 of Swords is not pretty and for good reason.  In this example, the blade is a scalpel, and the scene, the operating room.  The patient on the table is us and we have a tumor that is pressing against an internal organ.  It has grown to a critical state, or nearly so.  We’ve had plenty of warning signs, but none heeded.

The blade is no longer in our hands, yet the choice is still ours. We are scared of the surgery that is needed, but even more so of the cancer.  So we allow ourselves to be place on the operating table and cut open knowing it is for our greatest good.  The tumor has to be removed. 

So we chose the date, skipped breakfast as told, and headed to the hospital.  We can have whomever we choose at our side, but they can’t do it for us.

The surgery itself might be quick.  A single event could cut us open and tear away the disease. Much of the sharp pain is averted by the anesthesia, but convalescence will be required for recovery.

In any event, once it is over, the healing process begins.  The aftereffects of that surgery will last longer than the surgery itself, and we’ll feel worse than we did before, but only for a while.  After we heal from the event, we’ll start feeling better than we’ve felt in a long time.  We’ll feel lighter, freer and with more energy. 

The last of the three perspectives is the one of least control.  We have been so ignorant of the errant thought pattern that we’ll not see this one coming.  In this vision, we are out walking in the woods, enjoying a sunny winter day.  Suddenly and without warning, a venomous snake strikes.  Two sharp fangs pierce our skin and we are flooded with pain.  Yet it is not the pain that is the worst of it.  It is the venom.  We not only must endure the pain of the event, but we must also DO SOMETHING about it!

You’ve seen the movies.  You know what happens next.  The brave person traveling with us or happening upon us is carrying a knife, and s/he knows what to do.  “Here, bite down on this rag cause this is gonna hurt.”

Quickly, before s/he catches any of our fear, s/he cuts into the wound inducing an outpouring of blood.  The venom must be removed.  It must be bled out, and even sucked out.

In each of these visions, there is a cutting away of something that need be removed.  The choice is ours, whether to follow guidance and hold the blade, or wait until it is done for us.  And notice how there is always a loss of some blood.  Even when carving, we’ll lose a few drops here and there.

We never understand why things sometimes get worse before they get better, but there is a reason.  In fact, it is part of the cycle of nature.

But remember, the 3 of Swords is a mental card!  These are visions and need not resemble anything real!  Many of us might not need anything like this at all, but the energy pattern is out there.

Think of it this way, it is like a dry riverbed and we are water.  We are moving through time and space. It is easier for us to fall into that bed and flow like the river that carved it in the first place. It might not be the least painful way to get to where we want to go, but it is the path of least resistance.

The best thing to do if you are feeling any kind of pain, is go with the flow and seek understanding.  With understanding, pain need not be misery or suffering.  It is just pain, a quick stab or a dull ache that recedes with time.

If you work real hard to avoid the prick, you might end up pulling a band aide off bit by bit only creating more pain than was necessary.  Or worse, you might hold off your healing, and thus your heart’s true desire, until another opportunity comes along further down the road.

And let’s talk about pain for a moment.  What is pain?  Sure, everyone knows what it feels like, both physical pain and emotional pain, but what IS pain?

Pain is a response.  It is a reaction to stimulus.  When we are burnt, we react.  When we are betrayed, we react.  So where is the pain?  Is it in our body?  Feels like it is, doesn’t it? Even emotional pain feels like it is in our body. But pain is not in the body; it is in the mind.  Our body is just transferring electrical signals.

Do you know why you rub your hand after banging it accidentally?  Because instinctively, you know to flood the nerve channels with stimulation to dilute the information of pain.  By rubbing your hand vigorously, the nerves have to transmit that data too, and that data does not become pain.  The mind gets all of the data and thus lessens its focus on the pain in order to process the rest of it.

I used to wonder why there was so much pain in the suit of swords.  Swords represents air (thought), not water (emotion) or earth (our physical body).  It is because pain is not so much a true emotion, but rather a reaction to thought, more like a repressing of emotion.  When you feel an emotion, you are now processing thought.  Think of catharsis.   True catharsis will feel like relief and even pleasure while still in the presence of pain.  The pain is the holding back, the catharsis is the letting go.  In that experience, you are transferring energy from pain to emotion.  That is why it is so important to emote!  The energy needs to go somewhere!

If you suppress the emotion to avoid pain, the thought energy (air) is compressed into physical energy (earth) and becomes something within our body which will create what?  Pain!  Thought energy can also be compressed in time rather than space and become an event that will strike at a later time.  But what does that create for us? Pain!

Pain cannot be avoided so much as just put off and/or transformed.  Why?  Because pain is not really any thing to begin with.  Pain is the illusion.  Energy is what is real.  It is ENERGY that is held, moved or transformed.  Pain is only the reaction to that energy and if we are going to react to energy with pain, then that same energy later on will still cause pain.

The solution is to change our reaction to the energy!  Allow the energy to flow.  Allow the emotion (which really just means Energy in MOTION).  Information is energy in motion.  Emotion is thus information.

The 3 of Swords only wants to cut away that which is hindering us.  Offer up what is old.  Ask for it to leave and allow the least painful process to transpire.  Know that the rest of the 3’s in the Tarot are SO much more pleasant and will come as the year progresses.  We are strong enough to walk through this and we are not alone.

Twenty-Ten

A couple of weeks ago, in my last blog, I mentioned how I woke in the middle of the night within a channeled message that I never got to the end of.  In that blog I mentioned some of the material I had received, but not all of it.  The rest was about what we can expect in the new year.  I had hoped that by December 31^st, I would have received the rest of the message, but alas, it is now the 30^th and I still have not.

So I have decided to write about what I did hear and my thoughts around it.

When I think of the coming year 2010, I typically pronounce it “two thousand ten”.  In fact, my mind was so attached to that pronunciation that when a friend at a Christmas party first told me of his idea for the “twenty-ten game”, I didn’t even think he was talking about the coming year.

He described to me his game, and it went something like this.  All of us at the party were to sit in a circle, meditate for guidance, and then write any predictions for 2010 that came to mind. The game will not end until 12/31/2010 because his plan is to track how many of the predictions come true!

Now, of course you would expect that I would be all excited about the “twenty-ten” game.  We sat in a circle, holding hands, and I ran some energy.  I could feel the energy shift and I even “heard” the result.  Yet, when it came time to write a prediction or two, my mind was blank.  All I heard were others’ thoughts, those that I have read or listened to.

I wanted to write something of my own, but all I had were a few words spoken to me in that channeled message; words that were abstract enough to not hold any discernible prediction.  So I remained mute.  [And for those that know me, it does happen every now and again! :-)]

So, what was that single phrase that held so much energy for me when I heard it early that one December morning?

Two thousand ten is the year when two worlds collide and one emerges.

They showed it to me this way:

2 ➔ 0 ➔ 1 ➔ 0

Two collide and become zero.  Out of nothing, one emerges and moves into the unknown.

Okay.  Interesting.  So what does that mean?

Before we dissect the symbolic phrase above, I want to share something that literally just popped in when I started this blog.

So while my mind was stuck on “two thousand ten”, my friend says “twenty-ten” and suddenly I find myself in an unexpected place, mentally.  It was like within a dark room in my mind, a light switched on.  How was it that when he said “twenty-ten” I never thought of 2010, but rather 20 10, 20:10, or 20/10?  For a few weeks, I just noticed the energy of the experience, but never came to any conclusions about it... until now.

If I write “twenty-ten” this way:

20/10

What does that mean to you?  Does it ring any bells?  How about if I write this:

20/20  - “twenty-twenty”

What does that make you think of?

Yes, exactly, 20/20 is perfect vision!  Actually, it is not perfect vision, but the vision of a healthy person, the expected vision.  The reason it is not perfect, is there are some people walking the planet who have better than perfect vision.  Yes, some even have 20/10 vision.  20/10 vision is when one sees at 20 feet what a “normal” person sees at 10.  That means their vision is TWICE as good as a normal person!

So, my dear friend that thought of the “2010 Game” was actually quite on to something.  His 2010 game was really looking for 20/10 vision within the group.  He wanted to see if someone could “see” twice as good as a normal person and thus “see” into the future!

Wow!  That’s cool.  I love the way spirit prods me with information.  Even when I don’t understand the message when it is given, I get enough of a hit to know that it is a message and to just sit with it for a while.

So, en route back to the original message:

2 ➔ 0 ➔ 1 ➔ 0

Let me tell you this.  After I completed A Fool’s Journey, and people started reading it, I was asked, “What are you going to write about now?”  I once told a friend that I wanted to write a book on numerology, but then added a numerology section to A Fool’s Journey and thought I was done.

Maybe I am writing a book on numerology, just one blog entry at a time.  My loyal readers have by now surely noticed that I blog about numbers a lot!

So, this week, we are back to 1, 2 and 0. I have written about all of these before, but is there more to say on the subject?

Of course!  For nearly three weeks now, I have been listening to this phrase echo in my mind, “Two worlds collide; one emerges.” and I have been pulling, polling and pining for more information.  “Ask and you shall receive.”

One place I always find more information is the Tarot and in the Tarot, we have four minor suits and a 2 within each of them.

As I thought of the 2’s in the Tarot, I found myself seeing four different symbols for the number 2.  They can be summarized as follows.

||   V   ↗  ☯

At the 2 of Pentacles, we see a man juggling two coins.  The meaning of this card is a person who is juggling two aspects of their life.  It could be a person who is trying to balance home and work life.  It could also be someone who has one foot in (a job, a relationship, a belief system) and one foot out.  I think of the 2 of Pentacles as this:

||

Two parallel paths. One is not greater than the other.  It is like cross-country skiing.  As long as the two paths remain parallel, you can straddle the two.  But what happens if they diverge?

V

This symbol illustrates divergence.  It is the fork in the road, and when a decision needs to be made.  This is the 2 of Swords.  On this card, we see a woman who is blindfolded sitting on a rock at the edge of a rough sea.  She holds two swords in perfect balance.  Recently, I heard a card reader describe it this way.  “She must put one sword down in order to remove her blindfold, but by then, she has already chosen which sword to keep and which to let go of.”

The lesson of the 2 of Swords is faith.  You can’t see each path to the end, you have to choose one and then take it.  The other message of this card is that the paths are equal.  Success is not in what is chosen, but THAT a choice is made!  The longer you sit waiting to make a choice, the more the fear can grow.

Next, I want to direct your attention to the 2 of Wands.  Here I will use this as a symbol:

↗

In geometry, we learn that it takes 2 points to describe a line.  In other words, once you have a second point, you have direction.  Where you are right now is the first point.  Where you want to go is the second.  The path ahead is what lies in between.  At the 2 of Wands, we have a path.  We may not have started walking it just yet, but we have direction, and given one step at a time, we’ll get there.

The last suit to address is Cups.  At the 2 of Cups, we see a man and a woman; each offers the other a sip from his or her cup.  The meaning of this card is the bringing together of opposites in harmony.  Romantic love is certainly hinted, but not always the meaning of this card.  What’s my symbol for the 2 of Cups?

☯

Yin-Yang, balance and harmony.  All of the 2s describe balance, but the 2 of Cups represents the most stable and most harmonious form of balance: giving and receiving, flow.

So now, before this entry gets too long, lets look at the message from spirit once again.  “Two worlds collide.  One emerges.”  Is this saying that we have a foot in two worlds like the 2 of Pentacles and that one of them must be let go of?  Does this mean that we must make a choice as with the 2 of Swords and then follow the new path as shown by the 2 of Wands?  Or is the collision a merging, a joining of conflicting beliefs that will harmoniously merge into a single marriage as shown by the 2 of Cups?

Maybe it is all of these.  I for one have noticed that I have been living two very different worlds intermittently these past few years.  In one of them, I am progressing, am happy, am connected, am full of energy.  It is when I write (blogs and books) and read (cards).  It is when I feel that I am on THE path and living my purpose.

But in the other?  Well, I don’t write about that one much.  I don’t show many that place because it is not an inspiring one.  It is filled with 5's.  I hint at this it when I tell you what each of the 5's of the Tarot means, but that’s it.

So, in 2010, am I going to let go of the 5's and embrace the 2's, finally?  Am I going to lay down that unneeded coin (or sword) making a choice and then walk solely on that path with both feet?  And will I be accompanied by a partner, an equal, one to give to and receive from?

And will “twenty-ten” be the year when my vision becomes better than perfect?  Will I see twice as many guiding messages as ever before?

Whatever 2010 brings, I am sure it will be creative and inspiring, after all, it is a 3 year (2+0+1+0=3).  And for me personally, it is a 7, and I am sure THAT will be deeply insightful.

The numbers I have been seeing the whole time I have been writing this blog have been showing me that I am right where I need to be.

Tomorrow is 12/31/2009.  It is a 9 (1+2+3+1+2+0+0+9 = 18, 1+8=9).  No better way to end a decade than on a 9.  Let the New Year’s celebrations cleanse the past 12 months, the past 10 years, the entire past of duality.

I ask to release all that I am holding on to that is not mine

And I know I AM freed

Happy New Year and Happy New Decade my friends!

Namaste

Prayer and Affirmation

The other night, I woke in the middle of the night while receiving a channeled message in my head.  The message was eloquent and insightful.  I was excited to be receiving it and anticipated where it was going.

At first I just listened, but was at the same time, trying to burn the message into my memory.  I wanted to remember it to share it with y’all, but it was just too good to chance it, so I jumped out of bed in the cold and dark and dug out my laptop.  Normally, my laptop is simply asleep, but this night, it was off.  By the time it booted up and I got comfortable on the sofa to type, I lost the connection.

I wrote for a bit hoping to catch back up to it, but it was gone and the words that came through my fingers were just not anything like I had been hearing.

Well, today is 12/12 and it is time for a blog message, so I am going to dive in and see where we end up.

In one part of the message, they were speaking about Prayer, Affirmation, and Manifestation.  It went something like this:

You have been told, “Ask and you shall receive.”
We of Abraham say it this way: “Ask and It is Given”.
In both cases, the path of manifestation starts with ‘Ask’ and ‘Ask’ is Prayer.

When you pray, you say, “I ask...”
When you are intent, you say, “I will...”
When you are at pure manifestation, you say, “I am...”

When you are at pure manifestation, you say, “I am”.  That is not to say the opposite is true though.  Saying “I am” is not pure manifestation without the belief behind it.  And that is what Affirmation is about.

In Affirmation, by saying the words “I am”, we hope to bridge the gap between prayer and manifestation.  That’s why we say these words over and over again.  Hearing our own lips say these words helps us believe them.

Yet, straight Affirmation has always been a challenge for me.  It feels dishonest.  When I am feeling down, to say, “I am happy” is simply a lie.

Those who know me know that I am just too much of a stickler for words.  It’s a gift and a flaw.  I can’t tell you how many conversations I’ve had in my life that were simply about searching for just the right word to describe an experience or feeling that I had.

“So, what was it like?”
“Well, it was sort of like riding a roller-coaster, but not really.”
“Was it like driving fast on a windy road.”
“Well, not exactly.  It was like driving fast on a windy road in a semi.”
“A semi?”
“Well, more like a UPS truck; one that I had never driven before, well, maybe one I drove once before.”

You get the point.  So, do you think a man like this can ever hope to state an outright lie in the hopes of manifesting that exact experience into true reality?  No, I don’t either.  I may be an optimistic guy, but I am probably a realist first and an optimist second.

I am not sure if you’ve heard me say this or not, since I can remember if I ever wrote about it in my blog, but the best deliberate manifesters are the feelers.  If you can feel joy and then focus on something you desire, you will manifest it with such ease and speed, you’ll make others’ heads spin.  People will be green with envy at how easy it is for you!

The second best manifesters are the true optimists.  If you really think things will work out, they will!  Optimism breeds more optimism, a la Law of Attraction.

So what about the rest of us?

Luckily, there are plenty of bright lights shining their gifts on the rest of us.  Some of those bright lights around here have been helping me, whether they knew it or not.  They reminded me.  They inspired me.  They guided me.  They shared with me and in looking back; I see the messages sent to me through them.

One such message was to use Prayer to clear some old stuff that has come back around.  And another was to begin using Affirmation.

When I first learned the Akashic Records Prayer as part of reading the Records, I also learned the Forgiveness Prayer, one I used for a good 28 days in a row.  This time, a friend gave me pages and pages of Prayer, about 20 minutes worth.

Prayer, like Affirmation, is meant to induce a state of connection.  For that matter, Prayer, Affirmation and Meditation are all pretty similar; they are paths to Source.

It was then that I had an idea.  The best way for me to resonate with something, be it Prayer, Affirmation or Meditation, is to make it my own.  So I sat down to write a Prayer for the specific clearing I was seeking.  Lo and behold, what came out was half Prayer and half Affirmation.

This was cool!  I hadn’t really come across something like this before.

When you pray, you say, “I ask...”
When you are at pure manifestation, you say, “I am...”

By weaving Prayer with Affirmation, we have dialog, Ask and Receive.

In numerology, A is 1 and R is 9, thus ‘Ask’ and ‘Receive’ can be represented by 1 and 9.  The path from the 1 to the 9 is a journey, The Journey, The Fool’s Journey, which repeats over and over again.  It IS manifestation; it is why we are here.

...1...9...1...9...1...9...1...9...1...9...1...9...1...9...1...9...1...9...1...9...1...9...1...9...

The name of the Prayer that I wrote is this:

In the knowing that I AM forever connected to ALL THAT IS
I AM

Click here to see it.

And if you like it, use it, change it, make it your own; keep what you resonate with and throw out the rest.

Then do let me know what comes of it...

Blessings,
David


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Sadness in November

I’ve decided to write a blog entry today that is unlike what I would generally do.  Normally, I pass on wisdom from spirit that is uplifting.  Typically, I write something reflecting on a difficult time (for me or another) but basking in the afterglow of positivity.

Today, I am going to write while in the midst.  That is not to say this will not be uplifting.  In fact, I hope I feel better by the time I finish than I do now.

But for now, I feel sad.  I feel less than hopeful.  I feel like I am grieving.

Has someone I love died? No.  Have I lost a relationship that was dear to me?  Not recently.  Have I failed within some endeavor? Ah... 

I can’t really answer that last question concretely.  It is not like a ball game where the clock strikes 0:00 and the winner and loser are chosen.  I can’t read the clock to know how much time is left.  I can’t even see the score.  Do I think I’m winning right now?  Ah...

Some number of years ago, I made a proclamation.  I don’t necessarily remember making it, but I must have.  With my intention, I somehow chose to stop playing out my issues with drama.  In retrospect, it would have been a better decision to stop the issues, but instead, I merely stopped the drama.  So now, I feel happy and I feel sad, uplifted or depressed, all for no apparent reason.  Now, truth be told, dramas still do occur, but not like they used to.  I used to be able to gather up the friends and tell them how I was hurt, or stolen from, the nerve of this one or that one, the physical pain that came from this accident or that one.

Now, it’s just feelings.  I get stabbed in the back, but it is only a pain that manifests out of nowhere.  I mourn the loss of something I never had.  I lost that game I so wanted to win, but I’m not even playing.

Instead, what has happened in my life is that it has become a wall of mirrors.  Just about every person who has sought my services, be it a reading, energy work, or just inspiration, brings to me something I have.  For some, it is a pain deep in their heart.  For others, it is a desire to manifest something that is ‘evasive’.  Maybe it is a ‘negative’ relationship dynamic or a self-defeating habit.  If I don’t find it with each one, it just means I didn’t look enough.

So recently, a woman wrote to me regarding the last blog.  She had re-read the channeled message and fell back into a profound sadness that was present in her life.  Unlike me, she had a good reason.

At the time her email came through, I was just about to head out the door.  The plea was so genuine and so heart-felt that I just had to respond right then and there, but I didn’t have much time.  So I turned it over to spirit and typed.  This is what came out:

Our dear sweet _____. At this moment, your service to source is a COMPLETE success. You ARE moving into a greater version of yourself. You ARE moving into greater authenticity. You ARE within your purpose. Sadness is not an indication of failure. Your sadness is authentic. Your desires are authentic. Your creations are authentic. You are gaining clarity of your desires. You are allowing and choosing and walking more awake than before. As you see more clearly, you will see that which was created by your true self but also that which was created by a believed version of yourself. That is the path, that is the process. There is no imperfection within imperfection.

As the sadness is expressed, the believed falsities will loosen and fall away. All is well with this. You are not alone and you are loved. Be easy with yourself, you will come to understand and at the perfect time. It is now time to feel.

Damn mirrors.  I wasn’t even sad then.  I wasn’t even thinking I would be.  It had been a while since I sunk below the surface.  Guess I didn’t see it coming.

So, now as I sit on the other side of that message, I allow the feelings – not as well as I could – I mean, I haven’t cried yet; I feel it in my gut and just below the surface, but no water.

I sit among my dear friends, even laugh at the stories being told.  I do enjoy the company and am grateful to have them.  But does the sadness go away?  No.

It is now time to feel.

Okay, okay.  I’m not running away from the feelings, but I am not sure what they are asking me to look at, or let go of.

Once when I was profoundly sad in response to a perceived failure, I heard:

...but you know not what we have in store for you.  Your time will come.

But that was years ago now.

I will say something.  In the midst of this sadness, sometimes I take a deep breath and it feels good.  For that moment, relief.  The air almost tastes good.  I can’t fake it or make it, it just happens on its own, right there in the middle, and unexpected.

So, if there are any of you that feel less than joyful right now, you are not alone... meaning simply on the mundane level, there are others who feel the same.  Of course, we are not alone in the profound meaning, but that’s hard to feel sometimes.

Here’s to shedding a tear that has been wanting its freedom for a while now.  Let’s set it free and see what it brings.  Spirit always tells me:

It’s not bad to feel bad.

So, okay, I’ll take their word for it.  I allow the feeling as best I can and we’ll see what’s on the other side when I get there.

And hopefully you’ll be there with me
on the other side...

A Message About Relationship

Last night was the completion of my four-part series called Creating Higher Vibration Relationships.  I would like to thank all of you that attended, both physically and vibrationally.

This work is not just self work.  As we reach for higher vibration relationships, we create a path to them.  We are cutting a path through the jungle, and others who seek the same, will stumble upon this path and know there are those that came before them.

As a part of the final session of the class, spirit gave me a message for those attending.  After reading it to everyone, I was asked to distribute the message.  As I began doing that this morning, I decided to post the message here on my blog so that anyone can stumble upon it.

At this moment, the planet is rotating into 11/11/2009 one time zone followed by the next.  This is the 11:11:11.  Will this gateway bring something noticeable?  Or will it shift us in ways unseen?

Time will tell all  -  wi11  te11  a11

Best wishes on your journey,
David



You CAN have everything you want in relationship just as you can have everything you want in life.
 
But only YOU can create your relationship experience.
 
You may be in a relationship with another, but you’re experience of them is solely your creation just as their experience of you is theirs.
 
The Universe gives freely and at no cost!  You are not in exchange with the Universe – you only think that you are.
 
All of the answers are within you and available to you.  You need only ask and listen.
 
The source within you and the source within another is the SAME SOURCE.  You cannot serve the source within yourself and not serve the source within the other.
 
As you seek to connect and commune with the source within yourself, you will attract to you those who will benefit from all that YOU desire.
 
There is no desire held on the planet that is held by only one person. There is no desire that cannot be answered.
 
You can create any form of relationship you desire, however once you move into manipulation and coercion in an attempt to gain it, you have laid down your power of creation.  You cannot create what you desire for very long by demanding it or requiring it, because your demands and requirements are a demonstration of your disbelief that all is given freely.  If you believe you have to pay for what you receive, so you shall experience that belief.
 
Madam Justice is a reminder to you that the laws of manifestation are exact.  You shall reap precisely that which you sow.  If these laws were not precise, you could not hope to know your true self for only in the experiencing of all that you create can you come to know that which is of your true self and that which is not.  And if you cannot come to know your true self, you cannot come to know me, for my true self lies within you.

October Readings

Last month, I mentioned to y’all that I have been working with Stephanie Golden-Falcon on a weekly basis.  Well, as a result of our work today, we’ve brought through two very similar readings, which serve as guidance from spirit for this current phase of development that is now upon us (and just ahead).

In this first reading, you will see five cards laid out in an octagonal shape.

The middle row illustrates an ideal path forward. 

Notice that in the center (of the wheel) we find The Emperor. The Emperor represents a man or woman who is centered (anchored) within their power.  The Archetypal Emperor becomes the powerful leader he is by commanding (owning) his power of self, not through a demonstration of power over others.

At present, The Emperor is positioned between The Devil (below) and The Tower (above).

As spirit shows, The Emperor, by being centered within his power, is able to ride above all physical entanglements (The Devil) and weather the storm (The Tower).

The Devil represents this physical realm, neither good nor bad in and of itself. Yet, it is the pleasure and pain of the physical realm that can gain power over us.  We become addicted to our sensory pleasures.  In fact, fear is equally as addicting, attracting our attention and immobilizing us like a deer caught in the headlights of an oncoming truck.

The Tower represents those events within the physical world that are jarring.  In an instant, a belief system, an ideal, an infrastructure, and even a physical building can collapse into ruin.  In nature, eggs crack open as part of birth in some species.  In other species, the skin rips open and is shed through molting.  In order to grow, old structures must be abandoned.  Even the hermit crab, which does not create its own shell, must abandon an old homes when it ceases to provide enough room for its growing body.

To me, The Tower represents abrupt discontinuity – a hard left.  It is time to change direction to stay on course.

Within your power, as your Emperor self, you rise above physical encumbrances and survive the collapse unscathed.

Looking behind The Emperor, we see The Chariot. The Chariot is not driven; it is ridden!  It is a one-person vehicle and we each have our own.  In fact, The Chariot looks very much like the Emperor’s throne, but with wheels! [Study a traditional Emperor and Chariot and notice how similar they are (although not in this deck per se).]  To successfully ride The Chariot, you first must be in your own chariot; then hold on.  The stallions of spirit drive these mighty carriages.  They are designed to move and fast!

And look where you are headed, straight into your own guiding light! The Star represents your Higher Self.  Each of us has our own Star just as we have our own Chariot.  There is only one Sun shining down for all of the Earth, but there are thousands and thousands stars.  To navigate our current stage of growth, we each need to follow our OWN Star.

In the second reading, notice that we have many of the same cards, yet also notice we have additional information.

Focus on the upper left corner.  Here we again see The Chariot and The Star, but this time, it is The Hermit that lies between them. The Hermit represents turning inward, tuning in, and listening to spirit.  The Star is behind The Hermit, out of his sight, yet shining light on his path ahead.  The Chariot lies in front of the Hermit directly in sight as if spirit is saying to him, “Board! We have been waiting for you.  Let us carry you to safety.”

The Star also represents ‘being’ while the Chariot represents ‘doing’.  Notice that Temperance is below The Hermit and between these two states.  Spirit is guiding us to split our time between being and doing.  There is a time to be and a time to do.  Our state of being prepares the path, and then we are called to walk it.  The time to do, to act, may be drawing nearer!

Now in this particular and unique layout, Temperance also lies in between The Hermit and The Devil.  The Devil is again about the Earth Realm while The Hermit is about tuning into the Spirit Realm.  We ARE spiritual beings, but we are also physical humans walking the Earth.  The Earth (within and without) needs to be attended to.  Our physical bodies need care: food, air, water and even touch!  We cannot live in this realm on spirit alone (at least not at this stage of evolution).

Now look at the upper right corner where The Wheel of Fortune jumps out at us.  Surrounding it are Justice, The Sun, and The Tower.  The Tower sits directly below and at the lowest point of the Wheel.  Radical discontinuity on the Earth Plane is harsh and disruptive.  Instantaneous disillusionment is just as jarring.  The Tower, while sometimes necessary, is not fun.

You cannot see this, but Madam Justice is holding scales in her left hand.  Lying on top of her scales is The Wheel of Fortune.  These scales represent the Law of Karma; we attract what we focus on and The Wheel of Fortune delivers it to us.  Justice is a constant reminder that it is our thoughts that turn the wheel.  Are you going to turn it to the left and towards The Tower?  Or are you going to turn it to the right and towards The Sun?

And The Sun is The Golden Light that is here to nourish us all.  The Sun is directly responsible for our bodies.  It grows food enough to feed the whole planet, directly or indirectly.  It can be said that without the Sun, there could be no Earth, and thus everything that we desire is under the Sun. 


Looking again at the reading with a fast glance, you see The Devil in the middle of it all.  Yes, this Earthly realm is front and center.  Your and my life here on Earth is our utmost focus right now, as it should be!  In some ways, this moment is not unlike any other, yet it is wholly unique as well.


We know not what lies directly in front of us, yet the guidance is clear.  The power is in your hands.  Your Chariot awaits and your hand is on The Wheel of Fortune.  Take it all in, but know you are being called to act!  Your guiding light is shining the way out of darkness and into the sunlight where we can all bask in it.  There is enough for everyone!


Thank you spirit for your continuing and loving support - now as always!